Luna Movin' All About

She is so amazing. So funny, full of life. She can now pick up a wooden stick and hit the woodblock and the tambourine, and loves doing it! She can hold herself up on all fours (knees and hands) and laugh and scream and roll around. She amazes us. It amazes me how much love we can have, how much our hearts can swell.

It's summer and the summer makes me miss my little boy so much too. It hit me the other day, seeing some sweet boys, that I am a mom of a BOY, and I wish so much to see how he would have banged into things and made trucks move with roaring sounds and jumped in the mud, or not, what would he have done? Different things will strike me about him, here and gone, all the rest of my life I think. And today I especially ache for him. And I especially melt with love for my little girl, as she falls asleep in my arms.

When making this video of her, I didn't want to stop it, didn't want to let it end. I think a part of me thought, if she goes, if she leaves us, we'll just want to keep watching, every second precious, like the videos of Otto. I realized this and wanted to comfort that part of myself, have compassion for her, for the sadness of knowing what it's like to say goodbye to a child, to that deepest part of your love. I am so glad she is here, now, here now. Now is all there is, and she is here and we love her so much, love each other so much, in our nest of a bed in the cool summer night. We have everything.

Welcome

Welcome little babe. Born to my dearest friend Julianne. Little Ryan at 6:16pm yesterday. Welcome new life, new love, new heart.
We are so glad you are here.