My Beautiful Little Boy

Such a beautiful day with your sister today. She saw the ocean for the first time. She gives us so much love, so much joy, it's so easy to love her.

We miss you.

There is a little boy down the street born only 3 weeks after you. We see him and know what you would be doing now. He ran into our driveway with his mom today, with a big stick, so thrilled with this big stick, jumping and running, and your Dad and I were just thrown into heartache. I don't know if his mom knows our story, but she says hi to us and to Luna, and we watch her little boy with smiles and hidden tears.

I wish I knew what this was all about.

I don't understand life.

I love my baby Luna, I love you, I wish you were still here. I'm so glad there are toys all over our house and a high chair at the table and diapers in the drier. I am so grateful for our blessings. And my heart aches too.